"Let us cheerfully do all things in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for His arm to be revealed."

 D&C 123:17

I am trying to do just this ... not always successfully, but, nevertheless, earnestly. For example, this whole marriage thing, or rather, lack of it, has been really in the forefront of both my waking and sleeping thoughts lately. Sometimes I am full of faith in the promises I have been given through my Patriarchal Blessing and my prayers. But, many times, I feel so overwhelmed and scared by the whole prospect of living alone for the rest of my probably long life.

  "...Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief..." (Mark 9:24)

A couple of weeks ago, my home teacher advised me, in a round about way, to move on and accept the fact that I'm not going to be married during this earthly life. Sorry, but I don't think so. What is life without hope?  I jokingly told the gal who sits next to me at work that I was just waiting for my future husband's current wife to pass away so I could get married. She asked me if I already had someone in mind. I emphatically advised her that I certainly did NOT and hoped with all my heart that I did NOT know the poor woman! She then asked me how I thought I would meet my intended. My answer was this: "The Lord brought together the earth and the seas when he created the world, don't you think that He could bring two people together?" I know it would certainly be a miracle if I were ever to find any man who thinks he could put up with me more than a couple of hours ... let alone eternity. But I have already seen so many miracles in my life. Couldn't it happen through some strange twist of fate? I've told friends my husband may need to be both blind and deaf ... and possibly in a coma... but he MIGHT just be out there somewhere.